Story One, name, Hope.
Background:Here’s something from a child I know, a victim her whole
life, about 16, homeschooled, and had a nearly miraculous turn around
major therapy breakthrough, when her therapist was just about to call it
quits. I must warn you, she has an IQ equivalent to an average PhD, has
taken Constitutional law courses, etc. so this is not the writing of an
average 15 to 16 year old, let alone 30 year old these days:
THE REAL BATTLE OF GOOD AGAINST EVIL IN THE WORLD TODAY. by Hope.
“Part of this may sound like a wacky conspiracy theory or ridiculous but
scary horror fiction, but please hear me out, because I am a surviving
victim and am here to attest that it is sadly very real indeed.
Please play along with me for a moment. Imagine as far back as you
can of when you were a toddler. OK, have the picture/feeling? Helpless?
Dependent? OK, now your parent(s) take you to visit places – your
grandparents, dad’s congregation members houses. And strangers. You feel
safe with your protectors at least, right? Now, alter that a bit to my
and my sisters life, and millions of missing kids a year. Suddenly you
find yourself passed around to various people (including Grandpa),
experiencing pain you never imagined existed, while being simultaneously
raped & tortured to please specific desires, some sodomizing you, smash
your face into a table so hard you’re left with a flat face and teeth
for life, your nipples are put in a drill chuck and it’s turned on, then
drilled into, strangled, bound and suffocated with a bag to
unconsciousness and near death while having something your can't
remember by are told to learn and believe, programming you for God knows
what. How do you feel? That was me.
My sister’s life had the following variation but again, imagine it’s
you. As a pre-pubescent child, almost every night you’re taken to a
windowless bar, offered a drink you refuse, then held down & injected.
You then pole dance on stage naked, table dance & do lap dances. Then
they did anything they wanted to you and you did anything you were told
to do to/for them. Sometimes you lay or are held down and you’re covered
with ____. And you weren’t the only kids there. Dad takes his own turns
whenever, even privately at home. You eventually start to enjoy it all!
But like us, you’re too frightened of sex to go all the way. And when
older, you inexplicably start wanting to do it, and can’t have
emotional, mental or physical intimacy with your own husband.
Then imagine YOUR OWN totally seemingly innocent sociopathic minister
father was behind it all. Or in my sister’s case, you find out about it
after hiring a PI that leads to him, and when you ask “dad” the
questions you’re afraid he’ll answer, he confesses by phone. Only after
you’re married, have evidence, are living 5000 miles away, and he still
spends days lying, changing stories and giving excuses. It was all
recorded, but oddly, after years of dealing with Ohio and Lakewood CO
police, prosecutors, etc., they feel sorry for him because they yelled
at him, and refuse to deal with the evidence instead. It’s true, they
yelled and cussed. Imagine if you and your child heard something like
this. They were furious. And the evidence? Enough to convict Hitler with
a Nazi jury. Now imagine you’re so screwed up, you’re totally in love
with him. Both my sister and I were.
In my case, “dad” (Jim), police and court officers perjured
themselves to support him, believed him saying me, my mom and our only
escape supportive friends, my sister, in-laws, one attorney, our
therapists, were pare of or leaders of a dangerous suicidal cult. So
they ignored mountains of evidence, eye witnesses, “buyers”, his
recorded and written confessions, etc. and even allowed him “emergency
ex parte hearings”, the first trying to convince CPS (and break me down,
with no attorney or my mom), that I had to be sent to our rapist cult
relatives, or institutions. The next time, even with a restraining
order, they tried for “emergency parenting time” alone with him and a
published admitted federal criminal professional baby breeder for cults,
now with a therapist license. That fell through because we found out
ahead of time.
After over a half year of this, and no child support, when Jim was
ordered to take a child sex offenders test, he suddenly asked the judge
if he could exchange all parental rights for not having to take it.
Doesn’t that tell the ENTIRE story and truth to anyone but us?
The judge made the order sound like he was an OK guy, illogically
ordered to take such a test, and made us look like suspiciously
criminal. Then why wasn’t I removed? Why did mom get FULL custody and
decision making power? Why didn’t he have ANY visitation time, and NO
decision making power, why would that be unless he did something really,
really bad. And mom, nothing bad. There’s plenty of foster homes out
there.
But still, my mother was ordered to have no contact with her own
adult daughter? And I to have no contact with dear fellow massive rape
and prostituted sister who was the only one in the world I or she knows
of with that same experience and bond? Until I became an adult. Some of
the best years of our life, stolen forever, with absolutely NO WAY to
repay with any amount of money, apology or even Jim’s suffering if
anyone had the guts, compassion, bribe or threat proof demeanor it may
take? There is a least a couple of knights left. My brother in law is
one. But it would be great if he were also a wealthy attorney.
One attorney repeatedly said the judge was prejudging the case, to
which she never replied. And she’d made it clear, she didn’t want it to
go to trial. Then, knowing for such an allegedly concerned father
wanting sole custody to SAVE his baby, to offer surrendering her to a
cult like that, if one really existed, AND/OR if he was innocent – do
you know of ANY just “decent” fathers who would offer such a devil’s
bargain? Or a “decent” judge who would accept it without ordering him
taken into custody while he awaited a new full investigation, an
internal affairs-fairs investigation, and investigation of the stated
one sided “investigation” of an Advocate who is supposed to be totally
unbiased and investigate both sides before making a conclusion or
recommendation to a judge about a child’s welfare? Also, whether you
believe it or not, Jim made it clear he’d kill me if I ever told. Even
if not true, considering everything else, and reading this order for
yourself, and how it contradictorily makes no sense, the judge orders us
to keep him informed of my schooling, moves, etc? No order for an
investigation, his arrest, prosecution, nothing? Anyone willing to pay
for the copy or time to get it to them, is welcome to it.
Next came Salida. A former American roommate raised in Israel where
slavery is legal and sex slavery of all ages it big business and morally
accepted, was propositioned by Jim, then when moving out, witnessed him
raping me. After desperately needed therapy, he reported it to police
there, then mom and I, over and over. They promised it wouldn’t be like
Lakewood. Then another PI found out 4 years ago when we were living
there while mom was starting a business in Denver, all the neighbors
reported suspicious activities and possible child endangerment to police
and social services. They all saw towels and sheets hung over all
windows and doors 24/7 and kids were told I couldn’t play because I was
grounded indefinitely for being mean to kids. Neighbors also never saw
me in the backyard, because I wasn’t allowed away from Jim. He even took
me to work with him at a law firm some-times to make sure I wasn’t
alone, not even with mom.
Finally, one day my sister called mom and told her what happened to
her. Mom took me and we moved out, de-spite him keeping both cars,
everything, taking her business income, etc.
Back to Salida, apparently the police were involved, bought off or
something, because there was not one house call until the day after we
moved out, 2 and a half months later. Next, a former “client” with a
guilty conscience who was willing to go to jail to testify, hired a
lawyer who sent a letter to the DA’s, that were never responded to, if
ever. I called like the head DA like an innocent idiot (who the letter
was sent to also, but I didn’t know then) and said something was wrong
in Salida, and asked her to be in on a conference call. That was months
ago, and I was only left a voice mail wanting my address. I thought “The
media! The people will care about their kids at least!” The paper’s
editor was nasty, knew the truth, and wouldn’t do a story.
Again, Jim did this to me all across the country and CO. So another
place in the San Luis Valley, Saguache, had it reported. The prosecutor,
judge and sheriff even got copies of the recent NY Times article about
states all over with new capital punishment laws for child sex abuse,
even for cases far “nicer” than ours. If nothing else, it shows some
people are realizing it’s worse than murder. If you’re murdered, it’s
over and done. We have to live with a sentence day after day, the rest
of our lives.
We had hope again for a week in Saguache because my sister and
in-laws knew the Sheriff, he knew the non profit. Thought he was good
and moral. Then after being blown off for a few weeks, an insider heard
the DA tell the sheriff to make a “show” of something being done, but he
didn’t want the case because the juries wouldn’t want to think something
like this was happening there. The same DA and Sheriff that just held a
guy for 840 days until after a trial where he got 16 to life, for one
alleged rape of an adult ex, who still had a “thing” going on. He even
stopped to buy her a non alcoholic beer(?) on the way to his house.
Didn’t even have a gun.
When they asked the sheriff why he never said anything about it, he
said because the case was so different, open and shut and more
convictable. The only witness they had was someone in who saw them
driving together! Their was genetic evidence on duct tape, hair and old
blood from his knife. He still denies it and says she and someone else
set him up. So, I’m not going to help them with their “show” and go
through another two years of hell. The paper is virtually the same, but
not rude. My in-laws have also been ruined financially and health wise
because of Jim and this case. My sister’s father in law is about dead. I
don’t want to live. And if there is not major help from the media or a
grass roots flyer and email campaign, everyone is giving up. They’re
going to sell their non profit charities, including a sustainable living
one to help the local farmers that could have saved them.
The Dept of Justice estimates about 1,250,000 kids disappear every
year. Others say about 65 are found. Bush admitted about a half million
are sold into slavery. Now, really imagine that being you, or your
spouse is doing it to your child... How do you feel?
One day you grow old enough or something snaps you out of it. Do you
want justice? Vengeance? Would you like him to find out first hand what
it’s like to be raped and helpless? Or, what if you never snap out of
it. My God. Even prosecutors, criminal, custody and civil courts start
supporting him and further victimizing you against the mountains of
evidence on our side, and proof of lies and confessions on his. So what
if the child rapist psychotic my 8 year old sister dad sold her to had
her hairless vagina up with a knife, pled guilty, was convicted, said it
was part of a recruitment competition between two ministers relatives of
the same cult with different congregations, that your entire family
belongs to. 10 million members strong with official child abuse programs
and pro-protection policies for abusers, looks like any other church on
the street, but no one’s heard of it, and the head is in the top 1% of
the richest people in Switzerland? The Media still is the only hope. And
while the big ones nastily refuse to cover it, or trash the stories, all
that’s left are flyers, word of mouth and the web.
There has been an evil growing in the world, faster every day. It can
only be stopped if EVERYONE with decency and compassion stands up and
fights. Terrorism is nothing in comparison, wars, disease, scandals,
immigration, global warming. God’s had enough. The Earth has turned on
humans and we’ve had it without a miracle. This is our world.
I know I tried to get it across earlier, but the fact is, you CAN’T
imagine it really. It’s bad enough being sold for sexual slavery,
torture and worse, while having your mind twisted by the pimp to where
you think there is nothing wrong with rape even to the point that you
don’t even know what rape is – and it becomes just part of your daily
life, like eating, going to the bathroom, brushing your teeth, whatever.
There’s absolutely nothing it can be com-pared to, unless you’re one of
the victims.
There are laws on the books for those things, but not used. Maybe
“once in a blue moon”. Like the guy that did my sister and cousins (who
are still good brainwashed members of the family cult), got sentenced to
a year per girl, reduced to a total of 52 days. Time served. Lived
happily and wealthily for decades across from an elementary school. Oh
well. He was just a “poor old lonely guy” as my grandparents told Jim
when he checked with them just before delivering her to the guy he
admits he knew was psychotic, and that he might never see her alive
again, and might mutilate her (which he did). So it goes.
This new statewide movement about “capital punishment” for child sex
abusers “seems” hopeful, but probably is just to look good. Because we
know how we really get treated and how seriously it get’s taken. I can’t
talk to the Saguache Sheriff today, attempting one more jurisdiction,
because he’s off looking for someone lost. I guess the experts or
deputies can’t do it. So, strike three, no 4, Ohio, Lakewood, Salida
(whose police and SS records prove some complicity going back 4 years
and their prosecutors are covering it up), now Saguache. What’s left?
Sweet death. Someday. Sweet death will come as it eventually does to all
things.
After slowly, beginning to realize what’s happening and happened to
you, and then turning for help, and finding the entire legal system that
is supposed to protect you, not only ignores it, but supports the pimp
who desperately wants to maintain control of not just your body and
mind, but also your soul, is helping them keep you enslaved because they
are part of this darkness that is part of all of those not actively
fighting it – you even perhaps? You’re left further devastated, with no
hope, you’re finally left with no choice but to voluntarily choose to
damn yourself by giving up and going along with it yourself, or…? Please
tell me.
It is a travesty of the greatest kind. Even leaving you with no
belief in a God. Where is God? What God? Yours. “He” is letting it
happen? Doing it to me? Jesus? I’ve never hurt anyone or even harmed a
fly. Where are our ministers? Our priests? Oh, I forgot. I shouldn’t
generalize so much. But I also know too much, first hand, or first
something. I mean, our pimp was our dad and a minister. Then raped by
cops, there is no one left to turn to. Only my sister and I have each
other, and my custody judge, her appointees and our attorneys have
ordered that taken away forever as a last final blow.
Any such “authority” or those who do not rise up against this evil
and these people, are conspirators. Part of doing it. And should all
face life imprisonment (better than capital punishment in my opinion)
along with the evil beings that can’t even be called men, only
creatures. It may be hopeless. But this I vow. To fight to the death,
with every ounce of strength or resources available to me – which there
is very little left of now.” |
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